Was his last day at my school today :( think I'm gonna miss him, he is still living in the same town just going to a different school in the town. He said he was giving me a second chance but where is it, he hasn't spoken to me or hugged me and right now that's what I need. I don't know what's happening.
Just yelled at my Brother and told him to Fuck Off, then I retreated to the shed and hammered my hand and cried. Now I sitting in my room drinking Smirnoff Ice Double Black not bad really just not allowed to get found out :/ never done this before :/ Not even halfway through the bottle, I need to finish it before the end of the post.
My hand is startnig to hurt but there no bruising so that means no one can tell it hurts or what happened :)
Grrr I wish you would talk to me or ring me, but I guess you don't have a reason too, makes me sad :(
Did some more sunbaking today, was good just didn't get round to doing my homework and still haven't, which is bad considering I have a test tomorrow in Bio and I know nothing :/
You know what really annoys me?? The fact people don't understand! They say they do but they don't! they tell you that you'll be fine but they don't know the truth! yes maybe I will be fine but I sure as hell don't feel fine! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!! I wish I knew and I wish I knew how to help myself!!!
My rego is due like next week and I still need to find $150, I hate having no money!!!!
I forgot to write about this the other day, but I came so close to quiting my job and I mean walking out and saying no that's it I've had enough. I have had enough of that place, I'm over it and some of the people in it, they think they are the boss of the bloody when they're not. We work our butts off making it clean and keeping it looking good but we aren't the ones that get congratulated, it's her pretty much all the fucking time!!!!!! Can't wait till I turn 18 then I can get a job at the club!!!!
Good convo with em :)
Finished the bottle!!!
No comments:
Post a Comment