Gamble Everything In Love

I hate seeing my Mum cry but I finally told her how I really am:

• What my moods are like
• How much I cry
• How I feel
• Everything

She asked me question and I answered them as best I could without using the word depressed, but to be honest it was hard because that's the word that I think best describes my moods. This conversation was at 11 o'clock at night just after she had got back, so we are going to have another talk and work stuff out. We were both crying, it's the first time my lip has quivered and I haven't been able to stop it. She held my hand and I held hers. I love my Mum xoxo. It's weird how my moods work but at school I'm still down but I'm happier than I would otherwise be, whereas when I'm home it gets to me more :/

Homework in the sun is the best!! You get 2 things, homework done and a tan :) and I actually did all my Psych work and my Bio test so that was pretty much all my homework for tonight anyway :) so it's a good start to the school week.

I wish you could of actually talked to me today at school and maybe if you had of hugged me it would of help so much, considering I got to school and nearly burst into tears. I wish you would inbox me or something. I know we are not going out and we are just friends and going slowly but to be honest I don't think I know how to go slowly so it will be a good lesson for me but I just want this to work out.