I dunno know whats wrong with me. I used to have so much motivation to do anything, I feel like I have lost it all, I feel dead, like no-one cares if I fail or if I'm not around. That's the thing I miss about not having a boyfriend. Boyfriends are there for you when you need them, they give you hugs and kisses and help make everything better. I need someone back in my life who will be there for me when I need them but understand when I need to do study or school work. I wouldn't mind a guy older than me like maybe 18, someone who has a job. I decided one thing today and that is I want to have sex in a pool and a shower sounds like fun.
Sometimes I feel as if I have depression and I wouldn't be surprised with my family history - my moods are all over the place, I'll snap at people and just get upset about anything and everything even at school that's when the earphones go in, the music goes up and you ignore the whole world. I know I've just come off holidays but the truth is I need a break away from everyone and a break with no homework. I'll probably end up crying at the physio this week as he always asks how I'm doing, thinking I will just burst into tears, that might scare him, at least he makes me laugh and I trust him as a physio and a person.
Thinking I better start doing some revision, how fun.
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